What can I say...... I guess, in the end, you think about the begining...
I remember before I moved up here, I met with people who had lived in Chicago, and they all said the same thing, "You're going to love the city, it's great, there's always stuff to do, but it's REALLY COLD". The funny thing is, now that I'm moving to Arizona, everyone is saying "You'll love it down there, the weather is great, there are golf courses everywhere, there are a ton of ASU chicks, but it's REALLY HOT" hahahhahahaha
Well, for me, it looks like my time here is comming to a close. The plans have been made and the papers signed. It's not quite last call yet but the party is definitely winding down. The thing that always kills me is the fact that I'm never the guy that wants to leave. Even in Atlanta, I always felt like I enjoyed my life just the way it was, I liked the people I surrounded myself with, and I really didn't want to leave. It's almost worse this time. True, I haven't met as many people up here as I did in Atlanta, but I feel like I did meet a great group of people and I've had a lot of fun. Actually, thinking back on my stay here in Chicago, I've pretty much gotten everything I've ever wanted..... except maybe one thing.....
People keep telling me that I should be excited and happy to leave. Don't get me wrong, I am... I just can't help but feel sad and down about leaving sutch a great city that has been so good to me. The first time I drove through downtown, I thought to myself about how grand this city is. I've always felt like Chicago was truly a world city, and for a little fish from a small pond like me, it was inspiring.
So here I am, a couple days away. Time seems to be broken lately. Sometimes it seems like it's flying by, other times it seems to just dribble on like cold molasses. I know I've written this before, but my dad has always told me to live my life "like a Tiger". I think he was referring more to how they are fearless and impose a presence that commands respect. I don't know if I'm there yet on those qualities. Unfortunately, Tigers are solitary animals, and somehow I feel like I've picked that up.
I know I'll make it, I'm just too stubborn to quit or go back. I just don't always have to enjoy how it all happens.... So, farewell Chicago, you'll always have a special place in my heart. Who knows, I COULD always come back...... We'll see I guess........
Posted by e1000 at October 31, 2006 09:43 AM